What is more important: to be the one whom everybody likes and accepts or the one whom you want to be despite the wishes of others? I remember the song with the words "To be different means to be always alone". So the question turns into the choice between loneliness and individuality. In most cases we have to sacrifice one of these things. The worse what can be imagined is when you don't achive both. At least that what happened to me. Well, I never tried to make a huge crowd near me but even that little circle of people around me always demanded certain behaviour which I couldn't often give. And I must say that after some time passes you realize that you are tired like hell from this lifestyle, you feel sick and wasted, life seems to be "going nowhere". May be that is the feeling of lack of self realization. Don't you think so? I do. It's similar to clown profession: he needs to make people laugh and happy, that is his aim. And during our life we act like clowns trying to make people around us feel good and like us, we need their appreciation and congratulations, to realize ourself as an important part of the company/society. Heck, just think a little, we strive to recognition, to hear someone say how smart we are and only then we feel good and enjoy the life. Otherwise one feels useless and depressed. That means we all are dependent from others, our life is in the hands of others.

But try to look on it from another point of view and you'll come to the gorgeous idea: we don't need it! We are who we are and there is nothing bad in being ourselves despite what others say. And I mean it, as my own experience tells me... no, even cries to me for last years "Send them'all to hell and do what you think is right". Yes, I will lose most of my previous comrades and many people will turn off from me in the future but, as a fact, it doesn't matter at all. If you friend told you to cut your arm or to turn into the dog for him, would you do it? No, because it is impossible. So why are you trying then? A man should be accepted like he really is and not like he tries to be. Avoid people who don't show their real face, ideals and views, who try to achive your sympathy by all means. Don't be a clown nor try to become a dog. Show mercy to your mentality...