My life is not a laughter

Что то мне на иностранном захотелось написать. Всего то лишь пару дней назад это было - но вот так почитаю это и думаю - и откуда такое настроение берётся??

My life is not a laughter My life is not a joy My life is ripped disaster And all I do - myself destroy My life is tasteless side of worry My life is upside down and back My life's become so meaningless a story My life's so dull and such an empty stack Where is the light in shaft of darkness Where is beginning to start with When past is holding with dear meaning When soul is battered and concealed My life is not a joy, it is a torture All killing silence all around A purple ribbon at a doorstep nurtures Oh help me God to leave behind